Well christmas is over, it seems to come around faster each year - and I'm never ready for it!

And it's now 2008, I don't really feel the need to make any "new years resolutions" I always try to better myself each year and I try to make the most of what I have, so for me thats enough...

I ask myself sometimes, "why am I always afraid to show others my real self?"
I enjoy wearing dark, gothic clothing and I love the way it makes me feel - it makes me feel comfortable in my own skin, I feel that finally I have found myself..
But everytime I go outside I cant relax, I wonder what others say and I worry about their reaction towards me eg: laughter

And I think I know why, I was bullied alot at school - I followed along with the fashions of the time so I wouldnt draw attention to myself and now I guess I'm trying to "break away" from that...
But why, why do I worry so? Why am I so concerned with others opinions?? Why must my past continue to haunt me???